When the Music fades

While rummaging through my old files, covered with nothing else but dust and sometimes smeared with not so good memories, I found something really interesting.

I found a manuscript of one of the songs I wrote 5 years ago. I once had a love affair with music . I write when I'm happy, anxious or confused. Most of all, I write when I'm sad. Music is my refuge no matter how poignant the melody I create.

I actually ended up submitting my song as an entry for Silliman's Songwriting Festival which I had the opportunity to share with really great musicians who edited the song, arranged it, and turned it into how I want the music to be.

Sadly, I cant believe I wrote that song. It seems like it was written by a completely different person. My life's anthem has long changed. I can just smile and look back and tell myself that, "Yes, I have moved on."

Here's the lyrics by the way...

Even in My Silence

I'm caught up in circles
in finding reasons why it all went wrong
and now that it's over I know
i just cant find the ways to let you stay

ref:
But all that I can do is just to see you go
It's all my fault...

cho:
If letting go is the only way
to love you, keep you, save you
im going down, i'll take that way
time will change this all i know
i will stay
i wont speak. no more
i wont close the door
'coz even in my silence
I never did give up on you

Confusions are turning
who said that truth can really set us free?
im staying, ur leaving
i hope that love will find its way on me

bridge:
(oh, i cant seem to read it anymore) tsk tsk